| not gonna lie. this past weekend was the first in a WHILE i haven't seen the nothing more boys. and i'll definitely say my weekend wasn't the same without them. a good overall weekend. just not with the same spirit, laughter, happiness that i get out of a NM show and seeing those boys. Friday we went to see darby at curtain, then to catch kessler at the hard rock. it was okay. saturday was honchie and lazer at firewater. a side splitting affair, but i just felt...blah. heh.
now, the weekend before last. that was amazing. we went to san antonio to see NM...they played, we drank...lots, of course...and when we hit taco cabana at three in the morning with half of the band, we were (rather easily) convinced to stay and watch the super bowl with them in SA. citing car issues, b and i called in to work for monday, and i made the boys my special turtle cheesecake. we headed back to the bar where they played the night before to find outback steakhouse catered, and dollar pints throughout the superbowl. lets just say, between three women...we had four rounds bought for us, and my tab was still 20 bucks. daaaaaaaang. the sucky part was getting up at 730 when geri-anne had to leave for work so we could head out of town. the fun part was "waiting on austin rush hour to die down" by grabbing breakfast at the always amazing cracker barrel. that is a road trip staple right there.
there are alot of things i feel changing lately.
-i've been strong and adamant about cutting ties with james. its been almost a month now. and i push further away from him each and every day. i hope he realizes what a hole he's dug for himself. i can't stand the sight of him anymore. and for once i can honestly say i feel nothing. absolutely NOTHING in my heart for him. it makes me feel strong. powerful.
-i feel like i'm getting life in order. i feel like everything i've been questioning about myself is starting to fall into place.
-i've done alot of redecorating at my apartment. it looks amazing. and i love coming home to it. :)
-i've started my savings for our trip in july. see more info below. :)
-even though my days are still immensely busy, i take more time to enjoy the day. the wonderful gifts He gives us every single day that we usually take for granted. The shining sun. the wind blowing through the trees. puffy clouds sailing by. i went to the park every single day at lunch last week, to read and enjoy the day before me. so peaceful.
-i'm in a weird place right now. with this silly little crush on this boy who lives five hours away. i feel like i'm in school again. giddy would probably be the right word for it. but he makes my heart smile. a smile my heart hasn't seen in a long time.
-as much as i love dallas, and my life here, and the people i know...i still feel that urge, that need for a BIG change. and i think its coming at the end of the year. things coming up to look forward to: three day road trip with nothing more. feb. 22-24. they come through dallas on the 22, and we're all going to norman Ok on the 23 and stillwater Ok on the 24th. it'll be a weekend to remember. if my heart can even wait that long. mavs game. vs. the heat. feb. 22 as well. this one game is THE reason i picked the season ticket package i did. its going to be amazing. FINALS REMATCH, take 2.
Cabo San Lucas will be calling my name July 14-18. me, brandy, five guys known as nothing more, paco, and other various friends and families of the band will be in cabo for nm to play the cabo daze/wabo nites concert with vallejo. i've never been on a vacation just to BE on vacation. i'm pretty excited about doing this for myself.
And for that big change at the end of the year? i'm seriously, (if its possible more than seriously) contemplating moving to austin when my lease is up in november. still close enough to home, but with a whole new adventure awaiting. new music, new people, new everything. it could be amazing. and i'm pretty sure it will be. i've always thought i'd enjoy austin. and the more i think about it...the more it makes sense. my married coworkers/friends say do it, go while you can, while you're single, young and have no attachments. if anything, the ONLY thing stopping me from even moving tomorrow, is my job. if it weren't for this job, the two wonderful people i work for, i would never have been able to do the things i've done in my life. i dont even want to think about where i would be, what i would be doing right now if they hadn't taken such a chance on me and watched me grow into the independent person i am today. leaving this company is going to be the hardest thing i've done in a while. ever, in fact. i think i'll skip town this weekend. go hang with the family or something. brandy will be at a dance competition, so i dont have a partner in crime. :(
i know of an amazing show i'm going to on friday in fort worth. and although it WILL be amazing, and everything will be wonderful for a few hours, it still doesnt compare to this: 
or this: 
and the smiles that come with. |
